Hey all!
Well here's another topic--I'll try to get my point across :D.
I am sure that if you have internet, you'll know that it's filled with debates about the existence of God. Take a look at Facebook, for example, the number of people discussing this topic is great.
Now, I am not here to give you one final proof that God exists; but I just want you to think about what I have to say.
During my time away from God. I was mad, angry and dissapointed at him. The world's filled with war, hunger, crime and gangs.
I mean take a look at the israelis and palestinians sitation. Look at how many people die there. People that have not done anything whatsover. People from both sides too. You find old men, women and even small children die there. All I was thinking was, Where is God?
Look at people dying all around the world from famine. The number of people dying is just shocking. Yet again I asked myself, Where is God? Why isn't he helping? is there even a God?
I was mad at God, and I even had a struggle of my own that made it even worse.
Just a while ago, the answer hit me right in the face! It hit me like a frying pan--only harder.
"Love thy neighbor" and 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. (Matthew 5:43)
Then it all came clear to me; God did talk to us. He gave us one important message-- to love everyone.
Just think about it for a sec; if we followed God's message, we wouldn't be facing war and famine. Every country would love the other--every person would love the other.
We would be living in peace and in harmony.
God bless!
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Friday, February 29, 2008
My Testimony.
Hello all!
Well, here's my testimony:
First, if any of you have known me before a month ago, you would say I am not the same person. EVERYTHING related to religion would annoy me. Even a wikipedia page about religion used to annoy me. Even I used to stay away from religious people because I just didn't get it. Hell, even an athiest would have better chances of returning to God.
I hated God. It sounds horrible I know but this is what I was. I never even wanted to go back to being a Muslim--but being Christian? That thought never ever occured to me.
About 4 months ago or so. I was having a conversation with a Christian guy. I don't want to tell why I was talking to him. It was important though. Anyways, I told him I wasn't religious and he told me this " So you know you are going to hell". I replied and said "Yeah I know I am going to hell--I dont deserve to go to heaven". Whenever someone would want to ask me a question, I would say " If it's about religion, then I am not intrested". Even my religious views on my facebook profile were " I dont care about your religion". So believe me when I say, I've changed. And this is a message to anyone who gave up on God or even hates God, never, ever, give up on God. You might give up God, but he won't.
On the 4th of January, I've made on of the biggest mistakes of my life. I've hurt a person whom I care about deeply. When I got back to my place, the guilt ate me up inside so hard. I couldn't sleep nor eat for about 2 weeks. Just eating anything made me feel guilty. Going to sleep was the hardest part. The feeling of guilt slowly killed me. I gave up on everything. Heck, the day I hurt the girl that I loved, I had to go back to my place because I thought that I was going to pass out in any minute and maybe go into a coma. So I just had to go back to my place so that if I did pass out, then it would be somewhat safer. This is how bad it was.
For those of you who are wondering, not I did not physically hurt her. I can never, ever do that.
So it was really hard to live. Until one night, I just couldn't take it anymore--I just couldn't. I returned to God. Now this may sound silly but here's what I did, I looked up "Forgiveness verses" in both the Quran and the Bible. The Quran did nothing to me. I felt nothing from it. But when I read the Bible, I felt something--it made me feel better.
I tried to ignore it for a couple of days. For I, it was easier not to be religious, than to be religious. Until one day, It was too strong to ignore. I remember this clearly, I was taking a shower...and in a second, I broke out and almost cried. All I was thinking was one thing, "God, give me a signal, which is right...please"
You see, when you live your whole live thinking something's true. When you go to school every day for about 12 years and you get told something's true and right, and then one on night you have doubts and you start questioning it, you start questioning everything. You start having doubts about everything and you get confused so much. I cant even begin to describe how confused I was. It's like you're going against your very soceity and just about everything in it. If you saw the matrix and how the people who were saved from the compturized world and how confused they were at first, you'll know how confused I was. Now, I am not the only Saudi who faced this; there are many others like I.
The very next morning, the person whom I've hurt, told me this, " A non believer can be blessed if he/she is with a believer". Then I told myself, this is the sign I am looking for. But it still wasn't enough. I told her she knows where I am from and I cant convert and I have no choice. She told me, "You always have a choice".
That sentence triggered so many things inside. It's like when something explodes inside of you. It's like when you realize you want something--but you know it's going to be tough getting it. It was like I am stuck in this maze, and every wrong turn could prove to be horrible. But, at the end of the maze, there would be light. The Voice of Truth is there waiting for me.
I changed. I disliked talking about religion before. After that night, all I thought about was Christianity. Heck, I couldnt even focus in classes. Sometimes, I couldn't even sleep.
Then I learned about Christians in Saudi Arabia and how they are treated. That discourages me so much. We get jailed, tortured, and killed. You see, Islam, the so called religion of peace, says that a person like I, has 3 days to return to being Muslim or else I get beheaded.
So I did have my fears and they were huge sadly.
Even though, I went on this journey, this quest. I've met so many people. So many people have offered their help. Right now, about 80 people or even more are praying for me. The links to a couple of forums where I've been helped are on my Blog. The heartwarming support made me feel at ease. It helped me so much. I found a family in my time of need.
I've also met people who needed help--people who needed MY help. To my surprise, I actually managed to help them. I was in such a tough spot and yet I managed to help people feel better. I guess this was God telling me I should not feel guilty.
So I've learned somewhat about Christianity. I didn't learn alot; I have a long way to go--but I have my bible and another book about Christianity.
I've even talked to A Saudi guy online. He was looking for trouble basically but I told him what it means to Christian. A day before that, he was insulting every Christian that he sees. After I finished talking with him, he was reading The Bible--and he even liked a verse. Through him, I met a Christian girl from Lebanon. I talked to her for a bit and I have no idea what I said. All I know is that she said " I really wasn't strong in my faith. I dont really go to church. But that's all going to change starting today". This is just one story of the things that happend.
On Tueday, the 5th, around midnight. For some reason, I was scared beyond belief. I was scared for my life. I just stood there for an hour doing nothing. Then at around 2 am or so, I knew I had to do something, I knew I had to save myself.I prayed the prayer of salvation at that moment. After it, The fear went away. I went to sleep that night, and for the FIRST time in months, I went to sleep at peace. And not just peace, I had excitment in my heart--and this was new to me. Just trust me on this one. before that, whenever I thought about losing the person whom i loved, I would feel so much pain that my body would move on its own. That night, that didnt happen. I felt peaceful. It felt like I trusted God with it. Whatever happens, whatever will happen, is in God's hands.
God bless.
Ahmed.
Well, here's my testimony:
First, if any of you have known me before a month ago, you would say I am not the same person. EVERYTHING related to religion would annoy me. Even a wikipedia page about religion used to annoy me. Even I used to stay away from religious people because I just didn't get it. Hell, even an athiest would have better chances of returning to God.
I hated God. It sounds horrible I know but this is what I was. I never even wanted to go back to being a Muslim--but being Christian? That thought never ever occured to me.
About 4 months ago or so. I was having a conversation with a Christian guy. I don't want to tell why I was talking to him. It was important though. Anyways, I told him I wasn't religious and he told me this " So you know you are going to hell". I replied and said "Yeah I know I am going to hell--I dont deserve to go to heaven". Whenever someone would want to ask me a question, I would say " If it's about religion, then I am not intrested". Even my religious views on my facebook profile were " I dont care about your religion". So believe me when I say, I've changed. And this is a message to anyone who gave up on God or even hates God, never, ever, give up on God. You might give up God, but he won't.
On the 4th of January, I've made on of the biggest mistakes of my life. I've hurt a person whom I care about deeply. When I got back to my place, the guilt ate me up inside so hard. I couldn't sleep nor eat for about 2 weeks. Just eating anything made me feel guilty. Going to sleep was the hardest part. The feeling of guilt slowly killed me. I gave up on everything. Heck, the day I hurt the girl that I loved, I had to go back to my place because I thought that I was going to pass out in any minute and maybe go into a coma. So I just had to go back to my place so that if I did pass out, then it would be somewhat safer. This is how bad it was.
For those of you who are wondering, not I did not physically hurt her. I can never, ever do that.
So it was really hard to live. Until one night, I just couldn't take it anymore--I just couldn't. I returned to God. Now this may sound silly but here's what I did, I looked up "Forgiveness verses" in both the Quran and the Bible. The Quran did nothing to me. I felt nothing from it. But when I read the Bible, I felt something--it made me feel better.
I tried to ignore it for a couple of days. For I, it was easier not to be religious, than to be religious. Until one day, It was too strong to ignore. I remember this clearly, I was taking a shower...and in a second, I broke out and almost cried. All I was thinking was one thing, "God, give me a signal, which is right...please"
You see, when you live your whole live thinking something's true. When you go to school every day for about 12 years and you get told something's true and right, and then one on night you have doubts and you start questioning it, you start questioning everything. You start having doubts about everything and you get confused so much. I cant even begin to describe how confused I was. It's like you're going against your very soceity and just about everything in it. If you saw the matrix and how the people who were saved from the compturized world and how confused they were at first, you'll know how confused I was. Now, I am not the only Saudi who faced this; there are many others like I.
The very next morning, the person whom I've hurt, told me this, " A non believer can be blessed if he/she is with a believer". Then I told myself, this is the sign I am looking for. But it still wasn't enough. I told her she knows where I am from and I cant convert and I have no choice. She told me, "You always have a choice".
That sentence triggered so many things inside. It's like when something explodes inside of you. It's like when you realize you want something--but you know it's going to be tough getting it. It was like I am stuck in this maze, and every wrong turn could prove to be horrible. But, at the end of the maze, there would be light. The Voice of Truth is there waiting for me.
I changed. I disliked talking about religion before. After that night, all I thought about was Christianity. Heck, I couldnt even focus in classes. Sometimes, I couldn't even sleep.
Then I learned about Christians in Saudi Arabia and how they are treated. That discourages me so much. We get jailed, tortured, and killed. You see, Islam, the so called religion of peace, says that a person like I, has 3 days to return to being Muslim or else I get beheaded.
So I did have my fears and they were huge sadly.
Even though, I went on this journey, this quest. I've met so many people. So many people have offered their help. Right now, about 80 people or even more are praying for me. The links to a couple of forums where I've been helped are on my Blog. The heartwarming support made me feel at ease. It helped me so much. I found a family in my time of need.
I've also met people who needed help--people who needed MY help. To my surprise, I actually managed to help them. I was in such a tough spot and yet I managed to help people feel better. I guess this was God telling me I should not feel guilty.
So I've learned somewhat about Christianity. I didn't learn alot; I have a long way to go--but I have my bible and another book about Christianity.
I've even talked to A Saudi guy online. He was looking for trouble basically but I told him what it means to Christian. A day before that, he was insulting every Christian that he sees. After I finished talking with him, he was reading The Bible--and he even liked a verse. Through him, I met a Christian girl from Lebanon. I talked to her for a bit and I have no idea what I said. All I know is that she said " I really wasn't strong in my faith. I dont really go to church. But that's all going to change starting today". This is just one story of the things that happend.
On Tueday, the 5th, around midnight. For some reason, I was scared beyond belief. I was scared for my life. I just stood there for an hour doing nothing. Then at around 2 am or so, I knew I had to do something, I knew I had to save myself.I prayed the prayer of salvation at that moment. After it, The fear went away. I went to sleep that night, and for the FIRST time in months, I went to sleep at peace. And not just peace, I had excitment in my heart--and this was new to me. Just trust me on this one. before that, whenever I thought about losing the person whom i loved, I would feel so much pain that my body would move on its own. That night, that didnt happen. I felt peaceful. It felt like I trusted God with it. Whatever happens, whatever will happen, is in God's hands.
God bless.
Ahmed.
Me
Hello all!
Well, since this is my first post, I'll try to make this simple and introduce myself.
My name is Ahmed. I am from Saudi Arabia but I am studying in the United States now.
My faith plays a huge part in my life. I am Christian. I converted from Islam to Christianity--but that's another story to tell.
For now, I have two goals; to serve God --and to somehow make a difference in Saudi Arabia.
The things I like are : God (obviously), music, movies , human history and wildlife.
I still am not sure of what I want to do with my life. I know for sure that I want to serve God. I guess I just have to wait and see what happens :).
God has taught me two things. He taught me that it's okay to make mistakes and that I should never, ever, give up. Now, I am sorry if I keep talking about God but, this is the way I roll! This was my horrible attempt in being cool :D.
This is my first blog so I am sorry if it's poorly displayed. I mean, we all gotta start someplace right?
on this blog, I'll talk about my life, my faith, my friends' lives (with their permission, ofcourse), movies and tv shows that I like, the world and Saudi Arabia. I've been told that I have a sense of humor, so I'll try to be humorous.
One last thing, since English isn't my native language, you should expect to find grammatical errors here and there. So if there are any, let me know!
God bless!
Ahmed.
Well, since this is my first post, I'll try to make this simple and introduce myself.
My name is Ahmed. I am from Saudi Arabia but I am studying in the United States now.
My faith plays a huge part in my life. I am Christian. I converted from Islam to Christianity--but that's another story to tell.
For now, I have two goals; to serve God --and to somehow make a difference in Saudi Arabia.
The things I like are : God (obviously), music, movies , human history and wildlife.
I still am not sure of what I want to do with my life. I know for sure that I want to serve God. I guess I just have to wait and see what happens :).
God has taught me two things. He taught me that it's okay to make mistakes and that I should never, ever, give up. Now, I am sorry if I keep talking about God but, this is the way I roll! This was my horrible attempt in being cool :D.
This is my first blog so I am sorry if it's poorly displayed. I mean, we all gotta start someplace right?
on this blog, I'll talk about my life, my faith, my friends' lives (with their permission, ofcourse), movies and tv shows that I like, the world and Saudi Arabia. I've been told that I have a sense of humor, so I'll try to be humorous.
One last thing, since English isn't my native language, you should expect to find grammatical errors here and there. So if there are any, let me know!
God bless!
Ahmed.
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